You Aren’t Wrong Just Because Someone Else Is Upset


I’m indebted to Robin Einzig’s (above) and Harriet Lerner’s wisdom on this subject.

As a highly sensitive person, as a devoted wife, mother, daughter, sister, and friend, and as a woman conditioned to care far more deeply about others’ feelings than her own, I find it difficult to say no, to disagree, to disappoint, or to be in conflict with others.

It comes out in different ways with different relationships. With anyone else besides my husband or son, I feel intense anxiety and sometimes terror about conflict, even on the most innocent of subjects, like personal preferences. I tend to clam up and nod along. If they find out my hatred of sausage pizza, our friendship is done for. 

With my husband, this discomfort with conflict comes out in, ironically, angry fights, criticism, and arguments. I’m not comfortable with actual differences between us, not okay with holding to an opinion that he doesn’t completely support too, certainly not able to take a stand that evokes a strong negative reaction in him. Since I have no faith in my own opinions, I have to be right — unequivocally, universally right. My opinion being not mine but God’s own truth, I must therefore argue my husband into submission.

Funny, isn’t it? Argumentative people are so crazy insecure about being wrong that they have to be right, especially when they’re not sure they are.

With my son, my anxiety over our differences in opinion (I want to make breakfast right after I take a quick bathroom break, he wants breakfast NOW) manifests in indecision, guilt, and, eventually, irritability.

I point out these different manifestations because I think both dogmatic, critical people and insecure, guilt-ridden people are just two sides of the same coin: uncomfortable with making decisions that others disagree with; uncomfortable with sitting with someone else’s loud, conflicting emotions; unable to see the difference between causing disagreement and causing harm. And as a result, we lose sight of our own agency and responsibility, as Einzig’s quote above demonstrates.

We are ultimately responsible for our own choices. We are responsible for believing what we believe and acting on what we believe in accordance with our conscience. For those of us with a neurotic need to be right (and thus safe from harming others or eternal judgment or loss of love or whatever it is we fear most), the scary reality is that we are sometimes wrong…or that there are several reasonable choices available to us, and we’ve got to pick one if we want to live a life. We’ve got to risk being wrong.

Other people’s opinions and reactions make that difficult. Of course, it’s good to consider people’s reactions to our choices, as those reactions indicate the effects of our choices on others. Making responsible, ethical choices for ourselves ought to factor in the impact of our lives on others. A good number of people ought to pay more attention to other people’s reactions, frankly.

And then there are people like me, who swing wildly between crying, “Hang it all, I’ll do what I want!” and cowering in the same spot, petrified of any negative reaction. More scary realities: there are many reasons why someone, somewhere would have a strong negative reaction to our choices — whether that’s our husbands or toddlers or the world wide web. We sensitive people must never construe the presence of a negative reaction to be a surefire indicator that our decision is wrong, selfish, or harmful. We must separate our agency from other people’s feelings.

We lose our agency, our responsibility, and thus our own selves when we cannot separate a decision and our ability to make a decision from someone else’s feelings. Just as Einzig points out, in our discomfort with others’ negative reactions, we start shifting the blame of our indecision or our own feelings onto others: “He won’t let me. I can’t do it.” Eventually we feel trapped. And this entrapment shrivels our souls and boils up into angry conflict with those we love.

There will always be consequences to our choices, for sure. It may be true that you can’t go to the bathroom without your toddler melting down, or that you can’t say no to sex without your husband stonewalling you. But that doesn’t take away your choice. It doesn’t take away your responsibility to make the best decision you see fit. Their reaction is only one piece to puzzle of decision making.

Often it comes down to choosing your consequences: Do you want to sit on the toilet while your toddler screams and bangs on the door, or do you want to take a pee while your toddler destroys your under-sink storage? Do you want to stand your ground and experience your husband’s bitter disappointment, or do you want to have a tiring, empty sexual experience that leaves you resentful?

There aren’t universally right or wrong answers. And to be clear, others’ emotions aren’t right or wrong either. Your toddler is entitled to feel unhappy and disappointed by your decision. Your husband is entitled to feel unhappy and disappointed by your decision. It’s unfair to expect that their emotions should align with yours, and it’s not okay to invalidate their feelings just because they make you uncomfortable. BUT. That doesn’t make your decision wrong. That doesn’t make your feelings invalid. And that doesn’t take away your ability and responsibility to make choices in line with what you think is best.

True boundaries allow you to sit with your own emotions and acknowledge that your feelings don’t take away someone else’s right to feel his own feelings. True boundaries allow you to sit with another person’s emotions and recognize that their emotions don’t take away your agency or responsibility.

It’s a scary but liberating reality.

8 thoughts on “You Aren’t Wrong Just Because Someone Else Is Upset

  1. Lara

    Hey welcome back, I missed your writing! This resonated with me. I get irrationally angry when faced with differences in opinions and preferences. I think it stems from the huge guilt of contradicting someone (seems like Christians carry a lot of guilt!). Say if good friends come over for dinner and it’s getting late and I want to go to bed, I will inwardly get angry at them for not leaving but I won’t say anything, while my husband will just blurt out that we need to go to bed. He won’t be angry at all or feel guilty for saying that. And the friends will not be mad either. So why do I feel so bad about expressing my needs? Same thing with my husband. Sometimes I go out of my way to do him a favor that I later feel resentful about. His response is always that I shouldn’t have accepted to do it, he would have understood! It’s hard to learn how to trust ourselves and know our limits. It’s something I’m still learning.


    • Bailey Steger

      This is my DAILY STRUGGLE. I can’t figure out why I fear expressing my needs and opinions when (1) everyone else does it and I’m not offended by it; and (2) whenever I do express my needs and opinions, I’m rarely met with hostility.


  2. Jasmine Ruigrok

    Bailey, I love reading about the stuff you’re learning about yourself, and how to get a handle on life. I know it’s caught a bad rap in certain places, but have you ever looked into studying the enneagram? Some of the stuff you’re saying here about the why behind what we do and the way we relate to conflict/circumstances made me think of it, and it has been ENORMOUSLY useful to me for understanding myself, and responding better to life in general. You might find it insightful!


    • Bailey Steger

      Funny you should mention this: I have been trying so hard to figure out the Enneagram for precisely the reasons you mention, and it’s just not working for me. The general concept is brilliant and helps me think in those terms, but I don’t ever resonate with any of the specific results I get. What number are you??


      • Jasmine Ruigrok

        It’s a bit tricky to navigate without someone to help you, I had someone share some audio teaching with me so having someone literally explain it to me really helped. I can send it to you if you like. 😃 I’d also recommend reading “The Sacred Enneagram” by Chris Huertz. I’m a type 2, with a slight 3 wing (my motivations are primarily 2, but my characteristics can lean towards 3). Honestly tests can only help you so much, it’s better to listen to teaching or read up on all the numbers before you recognise what type you are. It’s about discerning heart intentions, motivators, vibes, energies, etc. to sound a bit new-agey but you know what I mean. 😜 I was taught that the number hurts the most to hear is the one you are; it’s an unveiling of a wound, to a degree when it’s the right one. Don’t know if any of that helps, but hit me up if you want to talk more! I really love sharing the little I know about it because of how much it has helped me.


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